Welcome aboard the Mystery train

I haven't got time to become a prolific blogger, but I have been quite inspired by some lovely lady bloggers I have 'met' recently and, as a firm believer that things are best when discussed amongst friends, I have decided to see if anyone fancies hopping aboard the Mystery Mum train. It'd be nice to have people to chat to along the way.

In my experience, IVF is one of those subjects that is either pushed under the carpet, or, if it is discussed, only with close friends.

I have always been a talker about everything really, and have always been very open about the fact that our beloved daughter is the result of IVF. Sometimes I think people think I'm a bit odd because I am so open about it but I think the more people see it as just one of those things the better it'll be for us all. I wish I'd known more about it before I had to do it but it's hard to find out what it's really like unless you know someone who's been there.

I was quite horrified at first to need IVF. I'd spent most of my early rampant years worrying that I would get pregnant and panicking if my period was late which it seemed to be almost every month..

It's quite ironic really, and I do laugh looking back at how much effort I took to not get pregnant and then when I did want to.. well now I sit hoping my period will be late and it never is (I just have a slightly longer cycle than the norm hence the angst each month when I hadn't studied my cycle as closely).

So many friends say - just relax and it'll happen - in fact I was guilty of saying it myself before. And um no it won't actually. As I waited to start IVF for DD at least 4 friends who were also due to go for IVF found they were expecting naturally and in some ways that made it all the worse for me, it gave me lots of hope. I hoped right up until the last millisecond that I would have a great surprise - but no... Aunti Flo arrived and away we went on a ride of injections and hormonal hell (actually I was very lucky and it wasn't that bad - not hormonal heaven but not a hell - well maybe I should ask my OH he may disagree there), you will soon learn I am somewhat prone to exaggeration ;-)

We tried again last year, but it was all bad timing for many reasons and everything happens for a reason and to this day I don't think it was mean to be...so many other amazing things were happening at that time but my stress levels were sky high so I think my body put it's foot down and said enough.. no baby for you this time!

So here I am again, over three years later, three years older (which means increasing drug dosages accordingly) and about to start all over again... today Auntie Flo has hinted to say she's on her way which means tomorrow it'll be Day 1 of my cycle and the day after will be Day 1 of our next endeavour.

Who knows what will happen at the end of this journey but I hope you can join me and that it's entertaining in at least some parts - I do like to laugh at even the blackest of things so don't be shocked if my sick sense of humour pops out occasionally ...

I promise not to talk about just this by the way, that would be horrendously boring, so I hope you hop onboard the Mystery Mum bus and enjoy your trip..

MM xx